0thlon

nice!

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 10:32:04 GMT

well muh blood sugar levels have been really good the past few days....and we dont know why! yay

i will get a belly ring if it continues to be good for a while :D

revisiting

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 20:14:49 GMT

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss...
was fun! but i probably wont get to kiss them again

2. I am listening to...
audio books, yay i love terry pratchett(this hasnt changed) also listening to music from EVE online latley. and hardstyle stuffs

3. I talk...
to only a few people and mainly online.

4. I love...
computers :D

5. My best friends...
are old friends who sre still here for me. yay

6. My bf/gf...
is imagnary

7. Life is...
fucky. shit. painfull, annoying, and overall a real struggle.(this also hasnt changed a whole lot)

8. I hate it when people ask...
if i have hurt myself, or ask why i have a walking stick.(hasn't changed) Im kinda sick of answering how i am going to :P

9. Love is...
confusing. painful. powerful. amazing.(wise words past me!)

10. Marriage is...
hard to get right...and i dont know if i ever will get married. not everyone is lucky enuf to find someone right.(again, well said past me)

11. I wish...
i didnt have diabetes. Or w/e causes the pain its..getting kind of old <.<

12. I'll always...
do stupid stuf, be different, and creative.(hah so true still)

13. I have a secret crush on...
he knows..does...that still count? cos..noone else knows :P

14. The last time I cried was because...
iiiiiii forget. i think stress, rejection, exhaustion, and pain.

15. My Sibling is...
one of my best friend. he's really cool :P he is also hairy.

16. When I wake up in the morning...
i wish i hadnt :P usualy skip breaky and take tablets. That still applys. i get up pretty early on school days. Some days i get up for dinner then go back to bed

17. Before I go to bed...
i wonder if i will sleep at all. i also put an audio book on, take some more medications, and then maybe sleep.(also still true)

18. Right now I am thinking about...
i want this next week to just be done x.x im so over college right now.
im also thinking about *him*. but yeah.

19. Babies are..
annnnoooying

20. When I’m nervous...
i get shakey! and want to get what ever it is started or over and done with sooner rather than later.

21. Today I...
uuuuuh...well..got up around 5, or 6 pm ish. ate..and ive been up since :P doing stuff online

22. Tonight I will...
sleep prolly thinking about school tomorrow. make sure i have everything i need for school etc

23. Tomorrow I will be...
a struggle. eearly start to the day. not long classes tho

24. I'd like to be...
more relaxed. Healthier....and i would also still like to be a kitten.

25.your biggest fear is…
dieing from diabetes related stuff...like going to sleep, gowing low and not waking up....u know..the usual

Holy crap...

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 19:44:16 GMT

...shit man
I still have this thing?!?!?!

i haz a hat!
yay

hay guys!

Sat, 05 May 2007 15:48:59 GMT

yes i am alive! busy busy stressed out with collage...small lie...:P ive been spending my leasure time watching comedy series and working on my very own <a href="miracleblue.com/othlon> WEBSITE </a> woo. check it out. have fun folks. oh also i only use theyarnkitten@hotmail.com for msn, and my comouter is dead, on a pc atm, so i cant check my e-mail, send it to my hotmail account. catch u all on the flip side!

hmmmm

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 11:30:31 GMT

i am posting from merimbular! uncle dave's wedding, their daught is 5 about time they were married.

anyway.

i may take a brake from checking this for a while because its all depressing...to me anyway.
so sorry if im not as up-to-date with ur life as u might wish

ill be back in canberra late monday

caio

stolen!

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 07:57:37 GMT

TEN FAVORITES
01. TV show – show? only one? Misghty Boosh atm
02. flower – australian flowers are pretty
03. colour – Purple!
04. sport – No.
05. mall – does...the interbets count?
06. music – stoner rock, electronic (all kinds) prog rock, ozzy bands, baroque, etc
07. food – soups!
08. season – Autumn, and winter (snuggle weather)
09. day - Saturday
10. city - Canberra

TEN FACTS
01. hometown – Canberra
02. hair color - dark brown, sometimes blue black, with a white/blond streak
03. hair length – long at fount, short at back
04. hair style – anime? tahst was the idea
05. eye color - hazel/redish
06. shoe size – i dont know
07. mood - a little depressed and sick, lonely...eh teh usual :P
08. smell – jenneh
09. available – have been for a year what do u think.
10. lefty/righty - righty

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
01. have you ever been in love - Yes
02. do you believe in love – meeeh dunno
03. why did your last relationship fail – sick of it. wasn't happy more or less. Couldn't cope
04. have you ever been heartbroken – many many times
05. have you ever broken someone's heart - maybe? i dont really know. Probably
06. have you ever fallen for your best friend – yeaah...lol
07. have you ever loved someone but never told them - all of the time
08. are you afraid of commitment – depens who with. i dont like short term relationships i guess
09. have you ever had a secret admirer – maybe not secret. some may have and i didnt know. anythings possible.
10. do you believe in love at first sight – maybe in books.i believe in lust at 1st sight.

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT
01. love or money - love
02. hard liquor or beer – wine, with a good dinner. Not much of a 'drinker'
03. vacation in Hawaii or Paris - um.....New Zealand :P
04. one night stands or relationships - dont know, prolly relationship
05. television or internet - INTERBETS!
06. pepsi or coke - Coke
07. wild night out or romantic night in – Romantic night in (sniggers) one day it will happen
08. colored or black and white pictures - both
09. phone or in person – in person...phone is evil!!! i prefer text or msn
10. msn or myspace – msn

TEN "HAVE YOU EVERS"
01. have you ever been caught sneaking out - i reckon if i ever was to sneakout. i would have 1337 ninja powers
02. have you ever skinny dipped – nope
03. have you ever done something you regret – yes
04. have you ever bungee jumped – nope
05. have you ever been on a house boat - no
06. have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker - a what now?
07. have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt - :D yeah
08. have you ever been streaking - nope
09. have you ever ran away - yeh
10. have you ever caught your parents doing it- no.

TEN RANDOMS
01. are you missing someone right now - yeah >.<
02. are you happy - sometimes.
03. are you talking to anyone right now - sorta
04. are you bored - little bit. more tired
05. are you german - no
06. are you irish – little bit
07. are you french - no
08. are you italian - no
09. are your parents still married - yep
10. do you like someone right now - i dont know anymore (i am easily confused!)

woah this post from IM works

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 08:48:35 GMT

neato. so yeah. college is weired.. tireing....and yeah. made some new friends, most are gay :P and a couple are even straught! lawl. had an awsome chat with ash last night, it was awseome. hopefully we will get to hang out properly soon. hmm what else is new. Still worrieing myself to sleepless night over my friends..its stupid i know but thats how i work. im still alive. my skin isnt blue. Still single *wink wink* :P still not getting out much...hmm. yeah. here i am. small update for u all.

Stuff

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 08:33:55 GMT

lets see if this thing works :P

woot woot jenny!

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 09:20:51 GMT

1. Grab the nearest book. (N.B. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.)
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag 5 people

terry pratchett's - Guards! Guards! ( my favorite book right now)

"yes. That's what I thought."
"Only, only, only when you sort of look properly, you can see it's just made up out of shadows and clumps of ivy and that. I mean, if you half-close one eye, it looks like two old women and a wheelbarrow."

they are talking about a dragon btw. Samuel Vimes, captain of the night watch (the first speaker) is asking Sargent Colon if he can see anything odd on the top of The Tower Of Art. It is, of corse, the dragon. just so you know....i could very probably quote more off teh top of my head, and tell teh story...but i wont...

i dont know who to tag sorry....everyone who i would tag have already done it, or tagged me first :P

edit: whoops i skipped step 3...smeh

yay stuff

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 14:52:49 GMT

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss...
made me more confussed

2. I am listening to...
audio books, yay i love terry pratchett

3. I talk...
to only a few people. not many people talk back to mee u see

4. I love...
.....i dont know anymore

5. My best friends...
are people i have met in lg and at knitting groups..they are all usualy much older than me

6. My bf/gf...
my what? i havnt had a bf or a gf for over a year. stupid quiz

7. Life is...
fucky. shit. painfull, annoying, and overall a real struggle.

8. I hate it when people ask...
if i have hurt myself, or ask why i have a walking stick...also personal questions, and what i am knitting

9. Love is...
confusing. painful. powerful. amazing.

10. Marriage is...
hard to get right...and i dont know if i ever will get married. not everyone is lucky enuf to find someone right.

11. I wish...
i was someone else, somewhere else, or just better. healthier, happier..that goes for my friends and family too

12. I'll always...
do stupid stuf, be different, and creative.

13. I have a secret crush on...
if i tell its not a secret! if i tell it could be bad.

14. The last time I cried was because...
i was in a lot of pain. and i had been thinking about some stuff i still feel guilty about.

15. My Sibling is...
one of my best friend. hes really cool :P

16. When I wake up in the morning...
i wish i hadnt :P usualy skip breaky and take tablets.

17. Before I go to bed...
i wonder if i will sleep at all. i also put an audio book on, take some more medications, and then maybe sleep.

18. Right now I am thinking about...
college, how the fark am i gunna cope?? im also thinking about someone secret and wondering what to do, and im thinking about ash, wondering how he is doing and whats going on.

19. Babies are..
cute! i love them, when they are someone else's baby

20. When I’m nervous...
i want to go somewhere else, or get ulsores :(

21. Today I...
went to a birthday party, went shoping, and generally over did it and exhausted myself. took dex for the 1st time in ages and made me feel worse than usual....i did do some more work on an art project im doing atm.

22. Tonight I will...
sleep? maybe. cry? more likely

23. Tomorrow I will be...
interesting. 1st day of college.

24. I'd like to be...
an artist, working with archaeologist, and not need a cane!! i would also like to be a kitten.

25.your biggest fear is…
dieing. my friends dieing. getting more sick. getting pregnant

yay stuff

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 14:30:08 GMT

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

WHAT IF:

» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you f*@! me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

heheh

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 12:25:58 GMT

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing
That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back
You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys
But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

What Do Guys Like About You?

i like it.wonder if its true?

bwahaha

You Are Bad Girl Sexy

Girl, you are nothing but trouble. And that's hot.
You've got the classic bad girl sexiness mojo going on.
And your badass attitude makes men fear you - and crave you.
Don't give into people who say to tone it down. You're perfect as is.

What Kind of Sexy Are You?

not rigged after all

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 14:31:54 GMT

You Are 80% Addicted to the Internet

In your opinion, life without the internet is hardly worth living.
Could be, but you probably need a bit more fresh air and sunshine to think clearly.

Are You Addicted to the Internet?

hmmm

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 16:13:08 GMT

i never want to do 2006 again....ever

ok it wasnt all bad, some cool stuff happened to...

lets see.

finished high school

ummm.... thats all ive got right now :P

all in all its been a prtety crap year. For me and my friends and family.

lets make netx year better.

nearly christmass day!

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 18:46:30 GMT

yes nearly, my family does all the presants on new years!
It has so many good points
- post christmas sales

-less stress of rellies

-more time to unwind, Dad only gets off work 2 days before the 25th!

-more relaxing allround

-Rodger's (brother) birthday doesnt get shadowed by christmas. Actuallu its this 18th today1 the 28th1 yay Rodger!

-we arent religious in any way, and us surviving a year is a great feat for us! and defentally worth celebrating.

Back to rodger's birthday, now about birthdays, in my family, the kids (me and rordger) get eachother gifts on eachother birthday. that is to say, we both get someting, so the other sibling doesnt get left out/sad.

This yeah i got him something awosmei cant tell u yet, but one it ticked over to 12:00am, he gave me mine. And it was Cowboy Bebop movie!! woot! i love spike...sigh..

as for a party, we are going swimming and then to a nice restraunt! And i think we're gunna buy him like A beer because hes now 18 :P lots of fun

Glad to see most people have had an awsome Christmass! I hope u have a fabulous new years and beyond.

much love, Jen

Above is a christmassy picture i did for my friend Anna last year.

alright

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 13:23:01 GMT

i am diabetic.'
prolly type 2. In time we will know for sure, theres a slight chance its early stages of type 1.

moving on

wish lists! I would love it if people would post wishlists so i can have ideas for pessies!

i will also post one later one, i need sleep.

Knews

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 07:27:57 GMT

knitting knews~

knitting 4 socks at the moment, two of which are with yarn i have dyed.

knittting some scalfs as well, one is just some cute yarn andone with hand spun

still working on jumper, almost up to decresses for arm holes for the back pice

making me some new cat years.

oh and still have a bajillion other projects OTN im not working on much.

bad knews~

i havnt been knitting much due to really bad joint pain, not just the heat.

just got test results from a glutose tollerance test i did yesterday...and well...just... Fuck. Diabeties is highly probable right now. I will see doc tomorrow to see what the answers mean.

drugs i have been on for 3 months have done basically nothing. increasing dosage.

all this week except Friday i have some form of docters appointment.

good knews~

finished high school! for good! wooo

spinning wheels of fortune! well of brokenness, we're going to fix them and stuff, and one will be my christmas pressy! yay me

ok proper update

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 11:04:30 GMT

formal pictured taken by the wonderfull Doug

http://formal2006.deceptionauto.com/index2.html

if u wanna know who's who just ask.

hmm lots of blood tests to day, like one, drink some stuff, wait an hour, another blood test, and then another after another hour.

mm sleepeh

oh we got the Wiii!!! wooo! Zelda for the win!

most may know the dumb stuff ive been doing lately, and im not quite sure what to do with myself.

uuum Dr ap;pointment tomorrow. Ill prolly be going off the organge tablets, \cos even after 3 months i still feel shit.

uuuh ultrasound on thuresday! see if i have Endometriosis or not. U can google it if u wish.

planning on swimming a fair bit this summer, so might invite ppl and stuff, ESP ash, cos hes like awsome.

hmm not too much more to report. see what these blood test results come up with. it will either rule out or rule in diabeties. Waiting game

formal and shit

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 11:57:37 GMT

uuuuh

yes

formal last night

walk out today

hmmm

thats all im gunna write right now cos im like...fucked...

im a little emo, short and fat

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 07:45:50 GMT

get it? "im a little teapot short ant stout?" uknowtea pot song...

um dr visit bad today

but lots of peopple are brakingup nd bad stuff so ill talk more later

frek!!!!

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 07:57:43 GMT

the doctor has asked me to come in on wednesday......which mean si have probably tested positive for soemthing.........fuck. fucl...fuck...just what i need...MORE bad news

shiney!

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 11:04:50 GMT

you can tell its really bad when i post in my LJ...

mk so this year has been really crap so far...and somehow doesnt seem to be impoving as of late...

ive learnt some lessions...the main one is to stay away from males in any romantic or sexual way. Ever.

i like shiney stuff

grrrr

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 04:27:35 GMT

lots of dreams....some horrible and some amazing...i wants spike :P and i want to kill ox.....damn my freakish mind!

bad day

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 15:16:47 GMT

ok it wasnt all bad, just mostly. The good thing is that i have handcuffs now :P thank u jeremy!

the rest of the day was prett crap tho.
im not a huge fan of being accused of being a "fake" in relation to needing a wlaking cane. No do i like stuff throws at me. ESPECIALLY the back of myy head. so by the end of school i was crying and the rest of the afternoon/evening i have been close to tears for no real good reason....

it is just that i am not living a life anymore. No friends, no love life or interest, no real thrills anymore. My while life atm is busy being sick...and quite franky i fuking hate it.

one big thing is i miss ash a lot. like a lot a lot. i havnt seen him in months. i dont give a damn about anyone else in Lan to be honest.. but i miss ash the most right now.

i also miss having any form of fun with the oppisate sex. i havnt even had anyone interested in me in months, well no-one hwo honestly was. its gotten reealy lonely lately. i have even joined "GothicMatch.com" you have to be like 16 to join, one year off shouldnt be a big issue..anyway yes its pretty lame.

iunno everything hurts. as well as like being very emotionally unstable. The sharp shiney thing is very pretty to me right now.

who knows.
i think i shall continue to sturf thru the profiles on Gothic Match see if anyone lives in canberra who isnt my age

update

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 08:01:01 GMT

hay all just a little ramble about the times and such.

formal comingup soon and judging by my health right now i *might* need a cane, so i wanna get a really pretty one to match my dress or soemthing.

been having trouble with school because my mind is so foggy and im falling asleep in classes and when i get home. Its really un ususal for me to sleep in the afternoon...anyway all part of this crap, and these meds should take full effect in 6 weeks...so who knows might not need that cane after all.

rodger baught howl's moving castle yesterday ^-^ now have 3 studio ghibli movies.

i have to say im pretty dissapointed - i found out yesterday about OX and JJ being an "item".
i dont know what the fuck he thinks hes doing....or jj for that matter! I thaught that had an incident this year already and she was going to stay away from him after that? i dont get people anymore! He is a bastard, nothing will change this....so like WTF i warned her but i guess "love" blinds you....

well i guess i shouldnt be so angry because its not like ive had a bf for about a year, or any relations for like over 6 months....

i dont even know if i WANT to know whats happening in peopels lives anymore. I jusy get pissed off. SO dont ask me if im going to "so and so's party this weekesn" because i prolly havnt been invited. Of corse there's little point in inviting me because ill prolly be too sick to go...

so yeah all that crap about how i need you all - well not so much anymore guys. If your msn and so am i that's awsome way to catch up....but i prolly wont see a heaps of you guys in person for a long time. unless i guess if u catch me in woden in the mornings when i go to school...uh scratch that idea i only go 3 days a week anyway.

so yeah basiclly the internet is goin to be your only contact with me more or less..
enjoy

Take the World of Darkness Quiz
by David J Rust

OH YEAH

one more thing
a few weeks after valintines day next year, if i still havnt "hooked up" with someone im gunna declare myself a virgin again :P

i think its resonable if i havnt had it in a year then i can say im a virgin......

thats all